Donkey Kong!

Only donkey would fall for the same hole, twice. And maybe am a new species of that genus, human donkey girl.

People said that shit happens in life. And this shit was redundant-ing all over again, and am never take any lesson from that. Dumb.

Am in the point where I could not take any anger, scream or cry anymore. Those emotions was only for lil irritating matter. This time, strangely I just could smile. I dont know why. I just smile, knowing the fact that for hundred times I was (again) betrayed. Lied. and you name all that unfaithful words, I must been thru that.

Holy crap!
Hahahaha. You got punkd!

This seems to be chain of something. And becoming scheme of an action. You lied. You apologized. I forgive (but not forget). We happy again. And you lied again. And you apologized again. And becoming circular action, all over again. Its just your character maybe.

Oh, maybe Lie is not the correct word to describe exactly what you do. Hide. Yeah, you hiding something that you dont want me to know. And you are a poor player, Dude. Everytime you hide something, i will be able to cover it. ALL OF IT.

I try to convince myself, that you are the one, the most of it, the package sent from God, all those crap. But maybe you arent. Who knows? I dont.

I always wondering why you seems not eager to making our plans come true? I always feel that I'm the only one who try. CMIIW. And when i try to discover and rearrange all these scrambled puzzle. I know. Maybe I just can never be good enough for you. Ever. At least that how you feel. Or maybe Im just TOO GOOD for you? Just choose one of that option, and we're done.

Ah, shit. Your childish attitude. When you angry or having problem with anything, all of the world must be knowing that. Just like now. Instead of having any discussion, argue, debate (or anything i would prefer) you write it down on your tiny lil pages to make yourself better. You hiding in that phlegmatism character you build and run from the problem you have. It wouldnt makes you stronger. Because everytime you have the same problem, you will just start from zero because never facing it. I prefer facing the problem instead to keep it silent. Prefer to having myself wounded than having a bomb inside you.

Gue ga boleh marah. Ga boleh ngomong kasar. Dan masih ga boleh diem juga? Dipikir gue malaikat? Kancut lah!

ah, ini nih. Makanya harus hindarin socmed kalau lagi emosi. Emosi apapun. Senang, sedih, marah, stress, dst. Soalnya seringnya yang keluar malah kata2 kasar.

Jerk will always be Jerk. No matter how hard you try to taming that. Jerk will always be Jerk. December. Its just less than two months ago. I think we have no problems at all. At that time, months ago, even yesterday! But I just gone wrong. Plan to do this, that. Saving this and that. Lil friction is normal. This is life, aint heaven. And you tell your friend your dirty lil secrets. Ahhh. Kancut!

Cuman bisa ketawa aja sih. Sampe segitunya menyandangkan nama belakang lo buat dia? Ringtonenya aja "Kupinang Kau dengan AlQuran". Gue sih ogah dipinang pake Quran. Nabi aja nyontohin minang pake Emas. *ah dasar matre lo wi, biarin. Ga matre ga bisa idup*

Seharusnya sih gue yg marah ya. Four this damn years! And you still having another feeling for other person. Jerk.

Jadi keinget, beberapa waktu lalu pernah dikirimin sms gini kira2: "Aku emang suka sama si A, B, C" (ada berapa gitu gue lupa). Lah emang ada masalah apa sampe ngomong begitu ke gue? Mau manas2in? Minyak tuh dipanasin buat nggoreng hati lo yg beku *duile*

Ah, jadi ngejelek2in kan. Ah segitu mah masi belom kayaknya. Haaaa
Ini harusnya gue yg marah kali ya. Kenapa gue malah jadi yg dimarahin, disebelin, dibenci? Ah yaudah. Gue juga bisa idup tanpa lo. Lupain aja empat tahun SAMPAH ini kalo emang lo mau. Tuh masih banyak embak2 bercadar yang nunggu dinikahin... Gue mungkin emang ngga bisa jadi apa yang lo mau, karena gue ngga mau. Gue mau jadi apa yg gue mau, bukan yg orang lain mau...

Monkey donkey jerkey crap!

110212. Ditulis dengan marah, sedih, lucu, goblok.