Dreamcatcher

Papi, why are you leaving so fast? Am still questioning that in my mind, randomly. When I see about things that remind me of you. Train, Jl. Sudirman, station, places that you used to be. Imagining that it must be exhausting for you, through those things all. No outside lunch, because you bring Mami's cook everyday. Saving every penny you could for fulfilling your family needs. You used to say, your colleagues lunch at that fancy fastfood restaurant everyday. It was expensive and lux resto by then. You keep asking, how much their salaries? Must be a big gap between you and them.:(

Papi, in the last day of our moment together, when you take me to train station everyday. I want you to know that I was recently appointed to become Supervisor on my division. But I never told you. Cause I think, instead of  grateful, you must be sad knowing that your daughter having a new hard responsibility. Amanah, is what I always learned from you. That being a leader is hard, cause we will be asked, whether we use it good, or not.

Papi, now am having a new responsibilities. Even tougher. I remember your face when your office printed your position as Assistant Manager on your Business Card. It shows all mixed up expressions, somehow happy, and grief together. Grief because it was just title. No remuneration at all.

Papi, your little daughter have reached positions that you never achieved. Its hard. But I learn that Amanah from you. I will. And always will...